26th September to 03rd October

Well, things got a little out of hand, but here we are.

Couple of young MI patients in the last few days made me seriously start considering quitting smoking again. I mean, c'mon, my lifestyle is the single unhealthiest one I know of. And I would hate to be a cripple in my 30s.

Handicap, I do fear, death not so much.

Day before yesterday, I had another deathless night. Streak 3.
Gosh, I am good at this, amn't I?

And today, I finished reading close to 60 pages of my fellowship material over 6 hours.
We're really taking control of things here, folks.

But to be true, I think I'm sinking deeper into depression. Mornings are getting harder. The quality of sleep is deteriorating.
It takes a herculean effort to move a finger. I'm suicidal twice a day.

It feels like wading in a thick, viscous, dark, sooty cloud, which sinks into your skin and makes your eyes burn.

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